electric buck shot

im bored with the excitement

so i ask the world:

why i havent met anyone that gives me that “feeling”?

is it me?

am i too picky?

is it because i have high standards for myself or for whoever i would want to care for?

have i overlooked people?

is it nor cal?

is it santa cruz?

do i like digging holes for myself?

am i wasting my time?

am i not thinking things through?

am i setting myself up for failure and i dont even know it?

am i too nice?

am i too mean?

am i too smart (probably not)?

is it possible to be too open minded and NOT see things?

do i have to be proved wrong in the fact that i am actually closed minded?

am i foolish to be thinking of all these scenarios?

should i get at the world if its not getting at me?

am i due for something?

should i let things just fall into my lap? 

will i ever meet someone?

is this a slump?

is big guns upstairs prepping me for something?

should i stay myself?

should i change?

the anomaly in this world of equilibrium is the fact that if you have one million questions, its not promised that you’re even gonna get one answer.